So...I quit the musical.  Sorry to: Britt-I know you wanted me to stick with it. Karen-good luck by yourself. Dr. Monroe-sorry I'm letting you down.  Mrs. Davis-haha, you can still go see it if you want, I won't be there.

School was easy today, in and out in 20 mins.  Came home and took a little nap then went to see Nora dance.  So Sexy!  then went to Perkins with her family for dinner.  Food: not good, Company: Great! My sudden freedom allows me to go see Walnut's musical on friday with Nora, then spending time together afterwards. 

Nothing else except for some lyrics, they're helping me out in this family chaos I've been going through, choose to read them or not, but they're good:

You slipped from my arms, I knew you had to go
Such a heavy heart, who could hope to hold?
And I know where you're going and that's the hardest part
No matter where tonight ends, you won't escape your broken heart

Helpless for the words and it tightens up the air
It's not what you deserve, it's not for lack of care
Inside of me is screaming out, I'm praying for my prayers
Distracting and unworthy of each and every burning tear

Do I see God in all of this? or maybe all along
It's just that we're so small and simply not as strong
Strong like wings of silver and feathers made of gold
To carry heavy hearts, to cover all our helpless souls

Under wings of gold and silver
Sometimes we have to hide
For shelter from this bitter winter
...At least tonight

Goodnight.

P.S.- I love you sweetie

Currently Listening Speakeasy By Stavesacre Gold and Silver see related

It's been a very long time since I've updated.  I'm doing it because I'm suffering a severe case of insomnia and can't sleep to save my life....

Work absolutely and completely sucks.  I've been put in the candy shop.  I know nothing about that shop nor do I care to learn.  Mama Nora was so excited about my placement I didn't have the heart to tell her how unhappy it made me.  It is better than vending though, I'm going to try my best to stick it out til season end.  I have my N8 and Seester for support if I'm having a bad day.  I just hate that damn candy shop.  James deemed my caramel apple unworthy to see the light of day haha.  I just suck at making stuff.  I'd be much better suited for Trim-a-Tree. 

Sound of Music at Princeton this weekend..Oh freakin boy..I so do not want to be in this thing.  I really have no choice, I'd be screwing over a lot of people if I bail out.  There's only two violas, me and Karen.  Plus sounds like Britt would have a heart attack if I don't stick with it haha.  As much as I don't want to, and as much as it interferes with plans with my baby and with work, I guess I have no choice but to play my dust-covered viola.  I don't even have the music yet haha.  Dear God its 1am and I haven't even yawned yet.  School at 7am...this should be interesting.

9 days til I get to spend 5 straight days with Nora in Indiana.  I'm so excited, nervous, but more excited!  Her family sounds like a lot of fun, but I'm just happy I get to be with her.  I miss her all the time, I never see her enough. 

I don't see my cakes enough either.  It's been forever since we've jammed.  I think I forget how to play my electric guitar.  We haven't gone to bdubs in a long time either.  I miss my smokey southwestern boneless wings.  I could live off of them....or..

I could live off of Nora.  It all goes back to her haha.  I'm actually and honestly depressed from not seeing her.  I just saw her last night.  But I'm just sad.  Everything in life is going wrong except with her.  She's my salvation and I don't know what I'd do without her.  I love you baby

You readers out there are probably sick of me by now.  All my posts are pretty much the same right? haha.  Well screw you, its my journal and I don't care if you read or not.  Thanks to loyal friends, family and fans (haha fans, yeah right) and of course to my baby for keeping me together when I need it the most. 

Currently Listening Colour & Shape By Foo Fighters Walking After You see related

Happy 3 months my love!  I love you so much

Happy National Mole Day everyone! go go avogadro! 6.022 x 10^23 mlc per mole!

May all of your lives be as good as mine right now!  I attribute this all to one very special person who's been by my side for 3 months now

Currently Listening Streetcar Pt.1 By Funeral for a Friend Streetcar see related

wow...where to start.  It's been a very long time since I've updated and I have so much to talk about, and a huge chunk of it all revolves around 1 person.  I guess i'll go in chronological order haha.

October 7:  My baby's birthday!  I went to her football game where of course they got whooped again.  After that we all went to skyline, which turned out to be super super crowded so we (jason jones, ben, and becca and of course nora) decided to go to steak & shake instead.  It was fun, everyone and their mom got cheese fries it seemed lol.  Nora and I weren't hungry so we didn't eat anything.  After that we came back to my house to watch Seven, which was good.  I like the concept of each killing being a deadly sin, because it reminds me of all the homonculi on full metal alchemist haha.  Go ahead and say it, I'm a dork.  Before the movie, I gave Nora her bday presents.  The locket looks beautiful on her.  I wrote her a song and played it for her, but I kind of sucked haha.  Then the family sang happy bday for her, and we sprung the seldom heard second verse on her and caught her off guard lol!  it was funny!  She likes her yamaguchi

A bunch of stuff in between like school, which is kind of growing on me.  I enjoy my breaks with Tahnee and Joe.  I got a B on my very first college paper, I was so proud of myself.  Tahnee and I were the only ones to score B's and we're the only freshmen in our class, how embarassing for the rest of the dummies haha. 

Work is starting to find its place in my heart again.  Probably because I'm not there that often.  I got to inventory the container with Mama Nora's help of course.  I'd be lost without her in that job, she's a great area manager.  Container is done! w00t w00t!  and next weekend I'm going to tackle that damn country store.  It's a monster, but I can do it.  Animation's last day was yesterday...all my ppl got moved to Emporium together because we're such a tight group.  Except my sups are gone and I, myself, don't have an assigned location yet.  Mama Nora told me I'm serving all inventory purposes for the time being.  I need to find out quick where I am though cuz I need a shift covered for the 29th! 

October 15:  One of the most memorable nights of my life.  It was Walnut Hills' homecoming dance.  Nora was absolutely gorgeous!  I can't begin to describe how beautiful she was, and is.  We had dinner at Charli's gramma's house, it was very good.  Steak strips and baked potato, delish!  After that we headed to the dance, where get this...I got breathalized!!!  it was really cool lol.  Nora and I picked the last two balls out of the bag and mine was orange so i got tested.  She was jealous haha.  Luckily I'm on the up and up and don't do the drinking thing.  The songs were pretty typical of Princeton's homecomings, a lot of rap.  Only 3 slow songs, bummer!  but we made the most of it.  Took Nora and I a little while to loosen up and dance.  I was a dancing fool, yes, a FOOL!  After the dance, went back to Charli's house for cake and icecream cuz we were celebrating her bday.  I didn't have any, not really the cake and ice cream guy.  After pyromaniac Charli burned holes in a couple of cups, we (me and like 4 girls, hell yes!  haha jk Nora!) went upstairs to watch sisterhood of the traveling pants.  Not ten mins into the movie everyone except me and Nora fell asleep.  I wasn't allowed to stay, though I really wanted to.  So after Nora fell asleep I kissed her on the cheek, whispered in her ear that I loved her, and went home.  I wish I could repeat that night over and over again.

There have been many bw3's late night trips with the cakes.  It has become one of my favorite things to do and I love both of them.  I couldn't ask for better friends.  Jeff is the new bassist of Stolen Faith, we kicked the other guy out cuz he just plain sucks.  It's fun jamming with him and Jason.  I really enjoy it.  Jeff's good already and he just started like a month ago. 

Last night Nora and I went to see Elizabeth town.  Orlando's character's name was Drew!  pretty cool.  Nora probably only saw half the movie cuz the other half was spent with my hand over her eyes so she couldn't see orlando bloom in all of his hotness.  I'm jealous.  I'm jealous of Jason Mraz too, what is wrong with me? 

I recently found out that I get to go to Nora's aunt's house for Thanksgiving!  It sounds like so much fun, I'm excited and nervous at the same time.  Her cousin Zach plays drums so we're gonna jam, which is going to be sweet.  I just hope I don't make a fool of myself because truth be told I'm not that great of a guitarist.  Wow are your eyes popping out of their sockets yet?  My fingers are growing blisters lol.  Let's call it a night shall we?  I love comments by the way

I love you Nora!